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The
first time you see the signs of
a generational shift in someone younger
than
yourself, it’s both a
shock and an almost material difference. Which is
ironic when pretty
much all the indicators of this
difference are contained in this
younger generation’s aptitude in
managing the
immaterial, their
digital dexterity. After this it’s not like you want
to hang
on to
anything analogue (like books, for example), just for the sake of
it.
And
actually I hate the British Library anyway. You go there and
every
architectural feature, every detail, has been so precisely
conceived and
realized to render the reader physically and
psychologically obedient that I
immediately want to be the violent
opposite. There are single-file escalators
that always work. The
contents of your regulation transparent bags are checked
on your way
in and out, computers opened, your books flicked through. All the
details
are smug with a pacifying luxury (handrails wrapped in leather, your
personal
light switch doesn’t make a click), the chairs are ample and
everywhere
there are perfect squares—patterned over the forecourt, cut into
banisters,
the shape of windows, everywhere. There’s nothing more stultifying
than
looking at a perfect square because there’s nowhere to go when you’re
in
it. And this is what They want. It’s no life.
Now,
I like books, but
privately I can understand how for a new generation libraries
have
become evil places. Full of books, yeah, but sites of restriction,
control,
exclusion, empty promises, somebody else’s idea about the idea of
education
and emancipation that works on
paper.
What’s
it going to take
for the Internet to become just such a "place"? Generational
difference, maybe.
Reaching the point when YOU look down and notice something
immaterial
and tangibly other and you realize that "freedom," this searching for
everything
because you can and talking to everybody like you because they’re
there—they
are (and regardless you want a sex life)—has actually stumped
you in
a furrow of four gay cruising Web sites, four e-mail accounts, one
webcam site
from which you’re banned and a bit of BBC Radio 4. And
you are stuck in it.
Like, on YouTube I keep looking for illicit
documentations of chorus lines in
the work of Pina Bausch because
I’ve seen some of them live, but they’re not
there, just a drawn
blank, and the only thing I’m bumping into all the time is "The Man I Love," like a double-blank of learning that
doesn’t help even while
it does.
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